What Happened?

What happened to me the last seven months? Well, a lot. The journey has not been good. I have gained more then twenty pounds in the last seven months.
I became an emotional eater. I was on a circle of eating then regretting I ate so I would eat some more. This time I am going to take you all with me on this journey. The journey is going to be real.

The first step if for me to get out of this slump, the slump I have been in for seven months. I got burned out and lazy. I am wearing different hats in my life right now. Plus I deal with insecurities.

I am insecure about whether I am good enough. I have got to learn to be me, no matter what. I am not shaped like Beyonce or Rihanna. I am not Halle Berry either. I don't have a big bottom, big breast and small waiste. Instead of the insecurities making me push harder to be a better me, it does the opposite. I get to a point when I don't care and just start feeling sorry for myself. I try to eat away my insecurities which in the long run is just making everything worse and makes me feel worse.

I want the skinny waiste and the nice body which I was on my way to at the first half of the year but then it seemed like it wasn't good enough. I guess there is always room for improvement but not to the point where it makes me quit and not care about myself.

This is it! Today I declare and decree I am a beautiful woman of God and I am not going to have any more slumps. I am not going to have any more slumps physically and spiritually.